It’s good to try and be rooted in something deeper so that when shit hits the fan; we’re not left completely scrambling to make sense of it all. Life is not exactly, as I had imagined it these days and things might be this way longer than I imagine. As a result, I find myself searching for ways to take back some power. Even if I can do small things like make my bed in the morning, I’ve met a goal and am beginning to think of it as a small victory that counts for something. It becomes apparent that sometimes you have to redirect your efforts, since the struggle you have isn’t always the struggle you want. I've been left me feeling mentally limited by the invisible barriers that prevent me from reaching larger goals and it has been disorientating. Consequently, working harder to maintain a positive mindset has been a habit, since negativity can prevent us from being able to help our selves. And the biggest disability that we can have is a bad attitude.