It’s good to try and be rooted in something deeper so that when shit hits the fan (SHTF); we’re not left completely scrambling to make sense of it all. Life is not exactly, as I had imagined it these days and things might be this way longer than I imagine. As a result, I find myself searching for ways to take back some power. Even if I can do small things like make my bed in the morning, I’ve met a goal and am beginning to think of it as a small victory that counts for something but sometimes the struggle you have isn’t always the struggle you want. What this means is that I've been left feeling mentally limited by the invisible barriers that prevent me from reaching larger goals and it has been disorientating. Consequently, I find myself working harder to maintain a positive mindset, working harder to not let life take over my personality (working harder at not becoming an asshole). I find myself working harder to see the good, to see the perfection in life, to believe that things are exactly as they should be because, if they were meant to be different then they would be. This has been a habit, since negativity can prevent us from being able to help our selves because the biggest disability that we can have is a bad attitude.